Yesterday morning was a particularly quiet time with the Lord. Sometimes, near the end of my hour with Him, I will spend some time writing in my journals. Yesterday that was not the case.
The word that I heard in my heart from Jesus, "John, look at me. Just look at me."
So, I spent most of my time with Him gazing on Him there in the Monstrance.
A lot can be said about a person by what is in their eyes. Some eyes are filled with love and compassion, others gentleness, some are filled with purpose and determination, and still others are filled with anger, bitterness, and hatred.
The eyes are the windows to the soul goes the cliche. Indeed, our daughter Anne-Marie has a unique ability to look deeply into our eyes, and the eyes of others. She looks right through us to the depths of our being. There are really only two responses to her gaze, put up a wall, or allow her in.
There are times where I too need the loving gaze of Lucille. I need the affirmation of her love for me that shows through clearly in her eyes and the way that she looks at me. The same is true with the Lord. There are times where I need Him to look deeply into me and take up residence in those deep places.
But, yesterday, things were different. It was His call to me to look at Him, that drew out the love in my eyes, in my heart, and in my soul for Him. Through my eyes I held Him as a child very close to my heart to keep Him warm and let Him know that He was safe with me. Through my eyes I looked upon the teenage boy who so needed the love in the eyes of His Father. Through my eyes I stood, with tears in them, and watched helplessly as He passed by on the Via Dolorosa. Through my eyes I offered what I could, love, joy, gratitude, and presence.
It is this last one, presence, that we crave so much! Only when one is present to the other will we discover Love! Love is what we crave, and yet love is what we need to give most of all! What an awesome paradox.